Off on another “shoot”…will take this time out to say thanks to all my new followers, reblogs, likes, comments, messages, etc, you’ve all helped me up my game and I’m having so much fun with this at the moment…in the past few weeks I’ve been trespassing through RAF bases & climbing over their jets and helicopters, rummaging around Redruths burnt out brewery, drowned, running naked around some woods, carrying a fucking chair around with me, trying not to wake squatters in the old Cornwall Motel, crawling under gates in Camborne, creatively entering old swimming pools and generally up at 4:30, speeding down darkened roads with Ghost Of A Saber Tooth Tiger’s “Midnight Sun” blaring out, sipping pre-workout for the caffeine and generally gearing up to bump into homeless folk or security. Thanks for taking an interest.
Wow, thanks Anon, very kind. No, no project, just messing about really.
Thoughts? Only the same as every other decent human being with a moral compass.
Morning Anon, thanks for the question.
Just the discovery of Primarily Obsessional Thoughts, the actual condition itself, was enough to slow it down and make it manageable. Knowing that I wasn’t “mad” or a bad person was a huge relief. These thoughts only have the weight or importance we give them and once I learnt that they weren’t necessarily what I really wanted/desired/believed they lost all value.
With regards to how you personally can stop it, I’d simply say stop. No more reading up on it; you know what it is and what it does, how it works, etc. You’re in a cycle, you fear it’s getting worse, you read up on it, you learn more about it, it becomes bigger, it feels heavier, you’re sure it’s getting worse, it’s feeding the fear…but what if it gets worse still? You plow more thought into it, more energy, more fear and it grows and grows and grows. Enough, let it go. When the thought comes on, let it roll over you. Once you let it go and accept it, it’ll fall away from you.
Good luck though Anon, one step, one day at a time.